Trying so hard to keep up

It is so hard to keep up with things these days between Facebook and Twitter and Blogging and Instagram and oh my so much social media.  I'm barely keeping up with my work day and once I get home I am just beat down tired. Exhausted is more like it.  I'm glad to be exhausted, don't get me wrong but I'm struggling to keep up with the groups of people who helped carry me through this difficult time (you all, and twitter friends) and trying to create new bonds with those women who are pregnant (the bu.mp) I like to read what others are going through and then I know that I'm ok and that things are going as they should. I also want to keep up with you all and cheer you on and celebrate when you reach success!

It's so hard to merge the world of who I was before IF, who I became during IF, and who I am today.  Can you even merge them, or do you just become a whole new person? I'm not sure.  All I know is that I feel like I'm doing a bad job keeping up with you all.  I don't want to just up and leave because we got our BFP.  I'm doing my best and we all know that is all you can do. Hugs to all.

Don't Ignore Infertility- NIAW

Happy NIAW week ladies! 

I've been talking about infertility on my public blog and face.book and it's created quite the conversation amongst my friends and family and for that I am glad.  I've received lots of emails with people's stories and how they are thankful for me using my voice to advocate awareness for those struggling who don't want to be public about it. My husband and I have been pretty open about what we have gone through as we went through it and I am more than willing to speak out and spread information for those who just aren't ready to be public with their private struggles.  Of course, when I hit publish on anything, whether it be my public blog and face.book, my heart skips a beat because once it's out there.... it's out there.

I hope to spread information and give people some tools, resources, and ways to help others.  Much love to all of you still working it all. I pray for BFPs for ladies all the time. Much love.

Happy St. Patty's Day!

I just wanted to pop in and say Hi! I've been keeping low key, not on purpose, but just because getting back into the swing of things at work has sucked out the energy I have.  I come home and just lie down because my feet hurt from being on them all day!  Once the husband comes home from work we just visit with each other, enjoy dinner together and after about an hour head to bed to watch our favorite shows before we pass out.  Then we do it all over again.  Nothing too exciting.

Wishing you a day filled with luck and love! I pan to catch up on blogs and how I've been feeling soon!

Tag Your It!

I've been seeing this going around the many IF blogs I read and I whenever I see something like this I always wonder who started it! I've been tagged by Rebecca at Life of an Army Wife. I am looking forward to answering her questions!

Here are the rules:

1)  First post the rules.
2)  Answer 11 questions from the person that tagged you.
3)  Create 11 NEW questions for the people you tag.
4)  Tag people and link them to your post.
5)  Let them know that you tagged them.

1) What is the one food you absolutely refuse to eat?
Fish

2)  What is your favorite food?  Please send me the recipe for the dish.
I don't cook.. but I love tacos!

3)  If you could only bring one book with you to a deserted island which one would you chose and why?
I don't typically re-read books because I already know what happened but P.S I Love You was so funny and great I'd love to read it again!

4)  If you could only bring either a hibachi or a frying pan with you to the deserted island which one and why?

Hibachi because I love to grill food!

5)  In the event of a Zombie attack which would you prefer for your weapon of choice, a shotgun with only two shells or a bowie knife?


A knife... I'd have better chances with that!

6) What smell reminds you of your significant other?  and why?
Shaving cream. I love watching him shave and so when I smell that I think of him!

7)  If you had the space for it would you grow your own vegetables?
Yes! That would be so cool to go outside and grab a cucumber or carrot

8)  What one personal possession means the most to you and why?
The butterfly ring my sister gave me.  My sister is my favorite person and she bought the ring in Texas, which is where we spent our summers as kids!

9)  If you could relive a moment from childhood which one would you choose?
I would love to relive a whole summer in Texas with my sister!

10)  Life is short, the doctor gave you 6 months to live and you just won $100,000 what would you do?
Pay off my parents credit card bills, our bills, and go on a vacation to a beautiful beach.

11)  Someone that hurt you badly in your past is now asking for your forgiveness, do you give it?  
I will forgive but I will never, ever forget.

Here are MY questions:

1. What kind of sleeper are you? Stomach, side, stomach, all of the above
2. What is your favorite app on your cell phone- if you have that kind of phone
3. If you could have any wild animal as a pet what would you have? Why?
4. If you have any super power what would you choose? Why?
5. What is your favorite candy?
6. What is your favorite season?
7. What one movie could you watch over and over again?
8. If you HAD to move to another state or country where would you go?
9. Are you a night or morning person?
10. Biggest pet peeve?
11. What's your favorite website to visit?

I'm tagging (and please forgive and ignore if you've already been tagged)

1. Rachel @ Eggs in a Row
2. Theresa @ Journey to the Finish Line
3. EndoJourney @ Endometriosis Journey of  Woman Warrior
4. Suzy @ Not a Fertile Myrtle 
5. Toni @ Who is this "Fertile Myrtle"?
6. Mrs. Slick
7. Living With IF
8. Denise @ This Blondie Wants a Baby
9. Kathy @ Hoping for a Baby4678
10. all i ever wished for...
11. Stumbled

Thank you

I have to take a moment to thank you all for the amazing comments you left me yesterday.  I had a pretty big brain dump and reading all of your comments today made me feel like you had each given me a hug.  I literally had tears in my eyes as I was reading through them.  I can't express enough how grateful I am for this community! Your support, your words of wisdom, and your kindness help me so much during this time. It also makes me want to set up reservations for a great night out to dinner because I'm sure we'd all have a hell of a good time!

So, my dear blog friends, from the bottom of my heart: Thank You!

Happy IComLeavWe aka ICLW Week

It always amazes me how quickly ICLW seems to come.  Certainly faster than the dreaded 2ww!  I always look forward to this week because it gives me a chance to read new stories and connect with new bloggers. I love this community and how much we share with each other. 

If you are here for the first time, Welcome! Here are some things to know about me:

1. I'm married to my high school sweet heart.  We've been married for 3 and half years and started TTC in May 2010
2. In July 2011 we met with our RE for the first time and in August I had Laparoscopic surgery and it was discovered that I have Endo stage III
3. We decided we would do an IUI in December.
4. That ended with a BFN
5. We met with our RE and planned for IVF because we are out of pocket and it makes the most sense for us.
6. IVF #1 will begin in February!
7. I love watching episodes of Friends, King of Queens and Everybody Loves Raymond

Merry Christmas

Wishing you all a very Merry Christmas! I am so thankful to have found a group of women that share an understanding of this journey.  I'd be lost without you all keeping me sane and reminding me that my hubs and I aren't the only couple out there going through this.

I hope those of you who are waiting for your Christmas Miracle receive it.  I wish those of you who are still waiting for that miracle a day filled with love and laughter.

Hugs to you all.

A little bit about me...

I'm finally able to say thank you to EndoJourney for passing this my way! I look forward to our conversations on Twitter and your support means a lot! Thank you!

The rules for receiving this award are: Tell seven things about yourself and pass on the award to 15 other great bloggers.

7 things about me:

1. I love dogs! Especially Boxers. They just melt my heart!
2. I don't like chocolate and peanut butter together.  GASP, I know! I like them separately though!
3. I love watching shows like Project Runway and Project Accessory.  Of course I love the drama but I am so amazed by what they can make!
4. I could eat pizza all week long.
5. I love the beach.
6. My sister and I look like twins, but we're not.  We are actually 4 years apart!

15 blogs: 

(I'm only sharing 10 because I'm still getting to know bloggers!)

1. Infertile in a Fertile World
2. Mrs. Slick
3. What IF?
4. Hoping for Baby 4678
5. Living with IF
6. MissConception
7. Mission: Fertile Seoul
8. Searching for our Silver Lining
9. Somewhere In The Middle
10. Finding my new Normal

Rebecca over at Pink Lipgloss and Prenatals is doing a 30 Day Challenge for December and I've decided to join in:

Day 1 - What is the meaning behind your blog name?

We spend so much timing waiting for the "perfect" time to work on conceiving and then we wait, and then find the bad news and we continue this cycle over and over...so the name just came.

Day 2 - What's in your handbag?

 

All the goods!

Mirror, floss, a great selection of chapstick/lip gloss! hair tie and bobby pins, tissues and a snack! My day planner, wallet, blue tooth, pen/pencil, hand sanitizer, gum, business cards and rewards cards

Day 3 - What's in your makeup bag?

I always use natural earth tone colors on my face and this summer I got into purples.  I have concealer, zit zapper cream, eye liner, mascara, eye shadow primer (amazing stuff! You don't get lines on your eyelids as the day goes on from the eye shadow shifting) eye lash curler, tweezers, bronzer and a very soft brush!

About blogging...

I've blogged for years- a little over 4 years to be exact.  I've had three different blogs and I still have one that I'm running besides this one.  I've been writing in this blog for a year and a half but have only recently -in the past 3 months or so- shared it.  For so long it's been a place for all my own.  The only person in real life who knows about this is my sister and my husband.

It is hard to get your blog out there and to meet new bloggers and build online relationships with people in a new community.  It takes work, but it is worth it.  I love photography and so my other blog has been primarily photos that I would share.  I love doing that but I've done it less and less because this is the community I want and need to grow.  I need you girls!

So, with that said, imagine my surprise when I won my first blog award for this blog! It sure put a smile on my face!  Thank you Theresa!

 

The word Leibster is the German word for beloved or favorite. It’s designed particularly for blogs with 200 followers or less.  It is one that shall get passed on to 5 other bloggers.

I'm still getting to know people through their blogs but here we go:

1. Fertile in God's Timing
2. Detour
3. Living with IF
4. Infertility and the Pursuit of a Family
5. CD 1 again...