Advocating for yourself.

Among the many lessons that I've learned while going through the terrible journey of infertility is that there is one that remains the same on both sides of the fence and that big one is to continue advocating for yourself.  Ultimately, you know your body best and you need to speak up for what you need.

It's not that I don't trust doctors or feel that they know what they're doing, it's that we've worked so hard to get where we are that I don't want something terrible to happen simply because it was overlooked.  I don't want to be just another pregnant patient at the OB office.  I want my thyroid checked regularly and I don't want to have to be the one to constantly request this blood test, but if that is what it takes, then that is what I'll do.

I'm not a high risk pregnant patient but I almost think that patients who went through IVF or any kind of fertility treatment should be.... just to maintain that close eye and that ... for lack of a better word "special" treatment.  I don't know that Special is exactly the word I'm looking for, but the fact is that we've been so closely monitored while trying to achieve pregnancy; why can't we have that monitoring throughout?  If only they knew the anxiety that comes with getting pregnant after IF.

I'm getting to the point where I'm definitely more excited than fearful, but the fear is not completely gone and I don't know that it ever will be.  All I know is that I have to stick up for what my body needs, for what this baby needs because I'm the only one that can take care of us right now.

Delayed AF

Where oh where are youuuu AF? I'm never happy to see AF, but this month I want it to get here so we can hurry and up get a move on with the next cycle.  Proof, yet again, that we are living our lives in cycles!

I had to go in for blood work again this past week for my thyroid and they upped my meds again.  I feel ok with the increased dosage, which I am happy about.  When I first started taking my medication over 2 years ago I remember I got headaches with the dosage they have me and I had to cut the pill in half. I am now taking a little more than 4 times what I used to be.  Insane!

Rough Month

I did in fact get AF. The night of my last post in fact.

The cramping wasn't bad but my mood was.  I was such a bitch to be around. I didn't want to do anything, talk to anyone or go anywhere. I was so mad at the world.

JT went in for his second seaman analysis.  I have yet to hear about those results and I don't know if I should be worried or not...

I did go in for cycle day three blood work (for a second time).  This time they took 6 or 7 vials of blood.  Which they didn't do when I went into get this blood work done before.  My thyroid level was in the high end of normal again.... so my RE wanted me to up my dose from 12.5mcg to 37.5.  That means I am adding one whole pill to my morning.  Crazy!

I then had to go in for cycle day ten blood work and that was easy- only one vial- but the place I went to messed things up so I had to wait longer than I should have because some how... on the sign in sheet it got marked that I was seen, when in fact- I was not! So I waited probably 45 minutes longer than I should have.  I finally go in for the internal ultrasound, which went well.  Once that was done I was out of there.

The next thing we have coming up is my laprascopic surgery.